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Wednesday, 20 April 2011

Being happy -- by Mimitig




Days to remember
Days to forget
These last few years have held
More days of sadness than of joy.
Sometimes I find it hard to smile
To laugh
To be the person I am paid to be
The cheery one.
Sometimes I want to curl and cry
Lock the doors, shut out the world.
Then one thing happens – someone makes me laugh
Makes me chuckle, snigger, choke with tears
Of laughter.
It happens when I expect it least.
When all I learn is of sadness,
Sometimes it’s people that I meet
Sometimes it’s emails from people that I greet
Sometimes it’s people that I meet and greet
Sometimes it’s people who make me greet.
That’s Scottish – look it up.
Life is never fair and not often funny
Life tends towards the struggle.
Sometimes though, life just is a joy.
Seize that, love that, laugh at that.
Don’t dwell on why the Angelus went bad.
Dwell on why there is an Angelus.
All of life is a reference
Most people don’t know our own personal references
You, my reader, don’t know who I mean
By the Angelus
But it is real, in my frame
Of reality.
 

Saturday, 15 January 2011

Autumn and Spring -- by Mimitig




from anime 'Windy Tales' (風人物語): 'Cherry Blossom Time' (櫻のころ)



Such a dichotomy of emotion
Is April the cruellest month or is
Autumn the Keatsian rich season?
For me both are full of riches
And the ultimate sorrow
Both are death

Teenage death with cherry blossom
Sudden death – like blossoms falling from the trees
Autumnal sorrow as slow death approaches
Life failing, breath shuddering as leaves fall
As the night closes in so slow death arrives

Funerals so different too
Springtime with soft rain
Gentle tears to say goodbye
Autumn with sudden gusts of
Gale and storm
Tantrums to rail against the loss

In springtime, for youth, a tree was planted
In autumn, mourners fought umbrellas

In the end all is equal
On the first day a teenager
Cried for her first love
Later a young woman cried for her father
Spring or autumn, both seasons bring sorrow
And both bring joy

 
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Wednesday, 11 August 2010

Storm -- by Mimitig



photo by James W Young from www.spaceweather.com

Summer
Bruised dark purple sky
Threatening violence
Flashes dark across the clouds
Lightning fuels bruises
Reel against the violence
Of the weather
Rain hurls itself
Against the window
No way out
Gutters weep, cry and echo
Inside
Blows and tears leave me weak
Crying for my past

 

Sunday, 9 May 2010

Sometimes -- by Mimitig



photo from wallpaperblog.wordpress.com



Sometimes at night I feel my heartbeat
Race
Like a butterfly
Wings beating fast inside

Sometimes at night I wake drowning
Mermaid tail thrashing
Going nowhere

Sometimes at night I wake crying
Tears drench my pillow
Why

Sometimes at night I dream of singing
Songs from past and present
Writhe round my mind and wake me
In the morning
Only shadows of the tunes
Remain

Sometimes at night people fill my mind
Dead and alive, they crowd me
Needing – something
What

Sometimes I wake
Heart beating like a butterfly
Wondering
When

Sometimes the morning sun
Rises in a sky painted glorious
Pink and red

Then I know
Why


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Sunday, 18 April 2010

Heartsease -- by Mimitig




photo by Ekko

Who gives flowers these names?
A rose by any other name is still a rose.
Not so the humble pansy.
Some call it heartsease
Never thought at all why so
Til with the flowering
Of our pansies
I realized what heartsease means.
These flowers with their lovely faces
Ease the heart.
It’s that simple,
That’s why flowers that have no care
Have no feelings for us
Just smile in deep purple velvet
Outrageous bright yellow and
Sweetly gentle orange
Smile.
The garden starts to flourish
As the snow diminishes.
We have colour and we have life.
I can choose some posies for my room.
Daffodils in the green vase are fun,
But too late for St David’s Day.
I search the cupboard and the cabinet
For special pansy vase – from Myrthr Mawr.
Find it, pick the blooms, dead-head the rest –
They’ll bloom again.
I have my pansies, my heartsease and can be quiet again.

photographer unknown.


Wednesday, 27 January 2010

Wolf Mother -- by Mimitig





I ran, fearful, fleeing the demons
Turned, fighting
Fought, tooth, claw and nail.
Won and lost.
Killed the spirit evil,
Lost my cub.
Searching, searching, searching
I ran, fearful, but not fleeing.
Hunting.
Hunting for my blood, my kin, my kind.
Paws bleeding on the snow
Paws wounded, like my heart
But searching.
Seeking.
Smelling.
Finding.
Finally
My lost cub, cold and fading.
Fading and failing, needing warmth.
I found redemption
Found my cub
Loving
Licking
I had warmth to give
Enough for my poor cub
My cub, my warmth to save her
Curling, nesting, nursing
Resting through the snow and ice of winter
Spring burst upon us
Little cub bounding in the meadow
Reminds me of the joy
Life is full of song
My life returns for I
I who have lost so much
Have found a reason
To live and love.

Wednesday, 7 October 2009

A Favourite Place: The Italian Chapel -- by Mimitig






Unfortunately the pic includes a bunch of tourists but it kind of doesn’t matter.

This is the interior of the Italian Chapel in Orkney. Built by Italian prisoners of war during  the Second World War, it is a triumph of faith and art. On the outside it is a pair of Nissan huts with a fascia. Inside it is full of the love and skill of the artists who were imprisoned hundreds of miles from home in Italy on a cold and bleak island in the far north.

The story of the chapel imbues it. This is a place so full of love and hope that it transcends all faiths. I have been there twice – both times cold and bleak days, but came out full of warmth and hope.

The story is here:

Friday, 25 September 2009

Soul Eaters -- by Mimitig



Fire burns bright
I live in darkness
Fear the light.
My name is night.
Moon in shadow
Fear the light.
Brightness burns
Hurts.
Fire that bites.
Moon clouds the light
Cool soothes the fire
That bites.
Fast running cool
Swift healing for the
Fire that bites,
Hurts
No one knows
Why the fast
Running heat
Burns so fiercely.
Paws, pause and cool.
Nothing left
Brothers, sisters – all gone
Fire eats
It all.

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Wednesday, 9 September 2009

Wednesday, 5 August 2009

Dreams and Visions -- by Mimitig





Do you remember
Dreams?
Walking across the sands
Barefoot and happy?
Do you remember
Pain?
Barefoot and sudden
Sharpness?
Do you remember
Blood?
Dripping from your foot
But did it happen?
Or was it a dream?
Do you remember
Swimming in the warm waters?
Do you remember
Weeds catching your feet?
Tangling your legs so you can’t rise and breathe?
Was that a dream?
Do you remember
Tears shed all night
But in the morning
The pillow is dry?
Do you remember
Waking?


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photo by Jeff Offutt

Wednesday, 1 July 2009

High Summer -- by Mimitig



The summer sun burns hot and high
Long into the night

Sultry afternoons lead to
Languid evenings

Dallying in conversation
As the sun slowly sinks
Over the sea in glorious pinks and purples

Leading to memories of other
Long hot summers

Parched grass, rivers flowing sluggishly
Swimming when the weeds
Fluoresced bright green
And punting was easy in the shallow waters

Further back
One Midsummer Eve

A dance, a Ball, a Commemoration Ball
A little girl, too excited to sleep
With a house full of visitors
Watched the pretty ladies
Dress in silk and satin frocks
Watched the Uncles
Preen in penguin suits

Further in the past
Another long hot summer

Young lovers arrive
In Split
On a blistering afternoon

So hot a post-war modern woman
Shrouds herself, head, shoulders, to the waist
In a shawl
The only one she has is black
She doesn’t know why
She looks the same as all the women
On the shore

Then from a yacht
A man is wheeled down to the quay
The men, in awe, take off their hats and
Bow their heads

It is their leader
Their hero has arrived

The post-war modern man, in shorts
Hastens to remove the brown leather cover
Of his new Kodak

Snap
Black and white, though faded now
My parents witnessed history
Tito arriving

In high summer




Friday, 1 May 2009

One Swallow -- by Mimitig

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illustration by David Cobb

They say
One swallow doesn’t make a summer

But they say lots of other things
Many a mickle macks a muckle
In for a penny in for a pound

Nonsense

I see a swallow coming home
And think summer

A swallow comes to nest
At home

And brings a second swallow

So if you see the one
You’ll soon see the other

And that is summer

Two swallows make their nest
Year on year, the same place
Only diverted by bigger, uglier birds like gulls

Gulls can destroy
They are predators
And if wee swallows nest
Where vicious gulls go
Gulls win

It’s nature

Happily my swallows nest
Safely

Safe space to lay tiny eggs
Hatchlings hopefully will know
A place of safety
Will grow to chicklings
Fly the nest
And come home in a year or so

To be my new swallows
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Monday, 20 April 2009

JG Ballard: honouring a literary giant -- by Mimitig

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I saw this headline tonight: Cult Author JG Ballard dies at 78.

The details are here: http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/entertainment/8007331.stm

Now, I have known for several years that Ballard was fighting cancer so perhaps it should not come as a shock to read that he has died and I’m thinking what is it that surprises me and makes me feel like writing something?

It is the headline.

“Cult author”. Surely the headline should have read: “Death of a Genius” or “Best-selling author JG Ballard dies”?

JG Ballard may have started his writing life in an unassuming way – short stories sent to Sci-fi mags – but long before his death he was acknowledged widely as a writer of fiction that could not be side-lined as Sci-fi or 'cult'.

Stephen Spielberg’s Oscar-winning adaption of Empire of the Sun made sure that JG was no longer a writer in the shadows. This was reinforced when David Cronenberg chose Ballard’s Crash as a suitable book to film. Much controversy raged about the film and it did nothing to harm the sales of Ballard’s book.

I was delighted to see Ballard in the public preserve – interviews with the print media and appearances on culture shows was nothing less than the man deserved.

Yet there was a part of me that resented these johnnie-come-latelies. Where were you, I thought, when his only readers were those who picked out the yellow and purple Victor Gollancz titles of his early years?

The first Ballard I read, and I came to it through BBC Radio Four’s Book at Bedtime, was The Drowned World. I listened late at night and went to the library – to the grown-up section – and borrowed my first non-children’s book. This was a rite-of-passage – child to adult through the medium of the book.

After reading that one book I was hooked on Ballard. I searched out all the Penguins (cover price 30p) with their dramatic cover art. I bought the Triad/Panther editions – larger format, cover price now £2.50 – different sort of cover art, different font for cover and text (set in Plantin and printed and bound by Hazell Watson and Viney – just up the road from where I lived).

I was so intrigued by Ballard’s writings that I would search out every bookshop, market stall or boot sale to gather his works on my shelves.

My uncorrected book proof, not for publication bound copy of The Day of Creation remains one of my most treasured literary possessions.

Now he has died and I feel another star that lit up the literary world has gone. When writers who can enthral readers and entice them into believing the world of the book die, we, the readers, are bereft.

I thank JG Ballard for sharing his world and his imagination with us. We will be the poorer without his words.

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Saturday, 11 April 2009

Spring Haikus Illustrated

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(photo by ezrakilty at flickr.com)




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Friday, 20 March 2009

Fire in the Sky -- by Mimitig

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Winter grim, dark, cold, wet
Occasionally snow relieves the boredom
Months with little hope

Early March, Spring shows early shoots
Purple and yellow crocus flowers peep
Afternoons eke out into evening
As the sun stays higher in the sky

Days are ever longer, mostly more rain
Then suddenly
Skies clear

All day is fair
Bright blue
Sparkling blue
Just fluff for clouds

Then sunsets start
Before, it was a nothing
Grey fades to dark, no colours
Now all at once the world has colour

Showers of rain
Bring luminescent rainbows

Evening becomes a joy
Fire in the sky
As a sinking sun
Builds castles in the clouds

Vivid colours allow vibrant dreams
Red turns to orange
Clouds that were grey
Take on electric colours

The palette changes
From the dark to
Utter light

Spring has arrived.

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Thursday, 26 February 2009

Killers -- by Mimitig

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Shock
When I find a corpse
At the top
Of the stairs

Or kindly dropped
On the duvet

I shudder, reach for newspaper and
Plastic bags

I have to get rid of
The body

I don’t examine how
It died

Or even if it is
Completely dead

Disposal is my solution

I try to reach a balance
With my furs

I have to deal with what they bring me

Their last treasure was
A crow

Gloriously black and blue in feather
Wondrous

They caterwauled to
Make me know
That at the door was
Death

Cats with mouths full
They make an unmistakable
Meeowish, purrish sound

I looked upon the corpse
I screamed and cried

“Cover your face, mine eyes dazzle”
I could only weep
Bright black eyes blanked in death

I did the biz
Disposed of the corpse
The cats did not object

Then I wondered –
Was this real?

A big black crow brought home?

Perhaps a child’s toy
A stuffed bird

My cats playing a joke
No
Checked
They did bring home
A
Big
Black
Bible
Black
Crow

They have been raised too much
On Dylan Thomas and
Nick Cave

What will they bring home next?
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Thursday, 8 January 2009

Saturday, 8 November 2008

Bonfire Night – Thoughts not a poem -- by Mimitig

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Remember remember
The fifth of November
Gunpowder,treason and plot.


There can be few adults aged, well, my sort of age, who don’t have childhood memories of fireworks night. We were given, or earned, some pocket money and went to the local shop to buy roman candles, Catherine wheels, jumping jacks, and asked Da to help out to get one of those big exciting-looking rockets.

With the fireworks stashed in the cellar, Mum helped make the Guy – some old stockings stuffed with newspaper for the legs, a worn out vest or jumper stuffed with an old cushion for the body, and a coal sack stuffed with straw and a face drawn in charcoal for the head.

Job done and we took the Guy out on the street to get some pennies, for a few more jumping jacks and toffee apples.

Home and time to build the bonfire. My dad was a master of the fire, and he built it so carefully – a pyramid of wood on which to perch the Guy.

At the very end of the garden, the fire was skilfully lit. It smouldered slowly, started to take hold, and Da began to light the first fireworks.

Roman candles started the display, glorious colours cascading into the grass. Then there were the fountains – two, three feet of magic. A short break then for us to light our sparklers (while Da attended to the bonfire and made sure that the Guy was sitting nicely, ready for the finale), and we waved them round. Writing our names in the sky. Screaming with laughter as the cold sparks fell on our woollen mittens.

Then came the Catherine wheels. The day before Da put up wooden sticks so he could nail the fireworks safely. Blue, green, bright white colours swirled in front of us. We ate our toffee apples and clapped with soft gloved hands.

Waiting for the big moment, the moment when the Guy would go up in big flames, the moment when the rockets would be launched, we had the jumping jacks. All round the garden, under the bushes, under the laburnum tree, they leapt and banged and we screamed in surprise.

Then the denouement, the moment we’d been waiting for. Six milk bottles standing in a line. Each rocket waiting, two small, three medium and one great big one. The anticipation was intense.

Da lit the first two. Little whooshes. Just went over the garage roof, but green and red sparks. We went – wooh.

Next three – wow – over the wall, into Keble College gardens, and they weren’t just green and red, they were blue and white and very bright. We cheered, loudly.

Then we waited, literally with bated breath for the big one. The last three had been spectacular.

So two small girls, watch, mittened hands clasped, as Da approaches The Big One. The fuse is lit, suddenly a jumping jack we thought finished, leaps out from the undergrowth. The girls shriek, and miss the moment of launch. But a moment later the rocket starts to earn its money. First a whistle in the star night sky. A silence. Then a burst of golden showers, then green, then red. This rocket has cleared the walls, the nearest buildings and is blossoming in the velvet darkness of a November sky.

With a final burst of lemon-coloured tiny stars, the rocket dies. We don’t know where it fell, and we don’t care. The bonfire starts to die down. Watching the fireworks, we have missed the burning of the Guy. Da attends to the fire, making it safe, then hugs us, closely, says – was that fun? We hug him closely. It’s been the best, we say.

Mum’s back in the kitchen, looking after the pets and making sure there’s hot soup and baked potatoes for us all.

Now I’m the grown-up. And I hate the fireworks. All I care about now is making sure my cats are safe when the bangs start. Perhaps if I had children I would be less harsh. But when we were young, we didn’t tie jumping jacks to cats' tails or throw bangers at strangers in the street. We had a family thing, in our walled garden.

This year, however, I am moved with other thoughts. It is of course, coincidence that the US election has fallen at this time of year. It is coincidence that the BBC are doing a big historic series.

But you know, what is a coincidence? Someone else’s chance, or one of Humphrey Lyttleton’s Pot Noodles of Fate?

At the very moment that Barack Obama seems to usher the world into a new era, so we are reminded of the wish for ethnic cleansing that was the Gunpowder Plot. Fawkes and his co-conspirators were very clear on that. They didn’t just want to blow up parliament. They wanted London and England to be rid of all Scots.

And that is perhaps why Bonfire night is still remembered. Across these lands of Albion and Alba. Across the religions, because some burn the Guy because of Catholics, others because of politics.

Wouldn’t it be a great thing now, this year, if we stopped all that rubbish, and celebrated November the fifth for Obama’s victory. For a new era, and a more tolerant era for our generation and for those who come.

Remember remember
The fifth of November
The day we came of age

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Tuesday, 28 October 2008

When Winter Comes -- by Mimitig

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The first snow
Every year I crave the same rhythm

I long to go back to childhood
And skate
And sing

And I find the song
For Sharon

It is the story of my winter
The song is Canada
My childhood is Port Meadow
And Rosedale

I skated into the mist
I had dreams and the world in my hands

Skating into the unknown
The freedom of skating into love

I wore tights under my
Woolworth jeans
So different from Joni
With her Cowgirl jeans

But as I felt the wind
Against my face
It didn’t matter, ever
That I was in my cheap dream

I remembered Canada
And I felt speed in my blades

Nothing could stop me then
Burning with power through the fog
I never felt so alive

Now I go to the rink
Sometimes
It’s not the same

But when the snow and ice
Lash against the window
I am back in childhood

I want to skate
In the wilderness
And sing

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Tuesday, 7 October 2008

Step In Step Out of the Rain --- by Mimitig

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Autumn suddenly shocks
Out of clear blue skies
The weather storms in from the Firth

No gentle sprinklings here
I stand – on the lower cliff
At the Preishach
I can see the weather
Coming straight from the north

The black cloud is the storm-bringer
Fistfuls of rain
Thrown from above

Run, run along the cliff path
Past the bright huts
Past the dolphins, breaching
They haven’t felt the violence
Or maybe do not care

The storm breaks over me
I stop, stand, gaze and wonder
At the dolphins

In their element of water
They seem to laugh
But not at me

Their fun in the waves
Makes me forget the wet, cold sogginess
Of being human

Joyfully, the dolphins play
They seem to know
That behind the black
Is sunlight

I reach the harbour
Look back to wave goodbye
To my friends

Do they see what I see?
Sun breaking through
A rainbow

One end seems rooted on the cliff
The other plunges into dolphin country

Just for a moment
Land and water creatures share the beauty
And the peace that comes after the storm

Smiling but sodden
I run home for a hot shower
Dry clothes
Warmth

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